Life Lessons Learned This Week.

I learned some very important lessons this week. One: I shouldn't let my stupid brain over think things and put doubts where there should be none. Two: I shouldn't let my tranquility depend on the safety of fictional characters in a fictional tv show that is super fictioNAL BUT IT DOESN'T ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IT OK.

Whew. I need to get this Supernatural-induced angst out of my system.

But back to the topic. Lately my brain hasn't been doing me much good when it comes to having sweet dreams. I generally wave up two to three times a night after having dreams. Last night after one such dream, I sent a nonsense text message to my best friend detailing my apology for being a bad friend. But I wasn't (until I sent that message.) I spent all week worrying and fretting and thinking I ruined my friendship. (Again, illogical. We have been through worse than one stray, albeit rambling, apology.) It was resolved today when she texted me, so I feel better. Embarrassed, but better. I kept trying to push everyone away, and thank god she ruled it as one of my silly moods. It's good to have someone who knows you well.

Okay. Supernatural. Wow. Just wow. I wanted Team Free Will to be happy and living in the bunker. That can't happen because a show has to have conflict, but Castiel's face when Dean kicked him out? Because of Ezekiel (AKA PROBABLY LUCIFER I MEAN COME ON IT ALL MAKES SENSE I BET HE SOMEHOW GOT OUT OF THE PIT SERIOUSLY WTF). I am sorry my life revolves around this show right now. It is all I have.

But there were moments I loved. Cas calling himself Clarence as a tribute to Meg. Cas eating toothpaste. The brothers rescuing Cas and Dean being all worried. It was so beautiful.