Supernatural Season 10 Confirmed

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First of all: YAYYYYY!!!! THIS IS GREAT NEWS!!!

Now that that's out of the way, I'd like to say I hope this is the last season. I'm a bit anxious over how they'll handle carrying the show on. Supernatural has been on the air for almost nine years now, and that's a long time. Long enough for story lines to be exhausted. Long enough that they have passed over more than a few good chances for a solid ending to the show.

What I'd love to see is the writers bring the Sam/Dean/Cas story to a nice, neat ending with no loose ends. That's quite the idyllic hope, I know. Still, I have a few aspirations as a fan, stories I'd like fulfilled etc. I'm a little nervous the whole series finale just won't live up to the rest of the show. (I know, I need to have more faith! But this is just my worries tugging at me per usual.)

There are those who hope for an apocalypse revival. While seeing Lucifer and Michael again would be great, I do not see this happening. The writers are probably not very eager to completely repeat the cycle of season 5. It's over and done, and they're probably looking for something new. But there are a lot of fans behind this idea, myself (at least partially) included, so perhaps they'll decide to do it.

I'm pretty open to any idea as long as it's good. The end needs to be meaningful, that's all I ask. Something on the caliber of Lost would be best...but that's a lot to ask. So, I present to you a rough idea of my ideal ending:

What I need is for Sam and Dean to die. And if not both of them, then just Dean. (They've hinted at something, at least, by Sam telling Dean he wouldn't try to resurrect him again.) Dean, who is ridden with guilt over so many things, really just needs to rest. So does Sam, but part of me believes Sam would have an easier time of moving on than Dean, as has been the pattern. Having one of them die would also break their unhealthy codependency issues. So let's say it's just Dean who dies.

He needs to die doing something important. Like stopping-the-apocalypse important. This would help him feel important and all that other stuff that Dean needs. He goes to heaven with this lovely scene where he sees everyone again. And I mean everyone. Bobby, Kevin, Pamela, Ash, Ellen, Jo, and everyone else. And then Cas is there, doing that cute angel smile thing (maybe it's the final scene, just the two of them). And you can interpret that as Destiel finally becoming canon. (Also, Castiel is definitely full-angel at this point, but with a better understanding of humans.)

Sam gets to move on with his life. He's good at that. Sam deserves something good, to be recognized as his own, pure person. I need him to be happy. If that means him dying, too, then okay. It's a little bit sucky when we have to watch one of the brothers leading a normal life, but Sam and Dean both wanted one. Sam could live it for both of them.

Before I finish up this shadow of a wish, I'd like to make some requests. Tell us what happened to Chuck. Please make it so that he's God, and things are good in the end. Bring Gabriel back at some point. Samandriel and Balthazar, too, if you feel generous. As for demons, keep Crowley around. That would be great. He's pretty fair as far as being the king of hell goes. And give Meg Masters some kind of recognition. Have Cas find out about her death...or bring her back. This is Supernatural. Don't pretend you can't.

Basically, that's kind of how I'd like to see the show end. And as much as I love Supernatural, I hope that's the end of season 10. Keeping a show on air for too long can really tire it out, and sometimes I think that might already be happening to Supernatural (although I do love season 9 so far).

What are your thoughts? Should the show have ended a long time ago? Do want it to go on a lot longer? How do you want it to end? Share your thoughts below!

P.S. Musical Episode. They can all sing. This needs to happen.

Yuck! Dealing with dumb drama with old friends.

This evening I received a message that put me off. It as from a friend who I'd lost touch with, and the message was essentially accusing me of "dissolving" this person from my life. Since I had struggled through getting over what I considered this toxic friendship, the message really upset me. I had pretty much gotten over this, and here she is stirring up all the icky feelings again.

I decided to respond maturely, explaining to her why I felt we had drifted apart and why I was okay with it. Still, I'm going to admit I felt like shit. I had just come home from hanging out with another friend, explaining to him that I lose a lot of friends through my inability to open up to people. That was partially the cause of the disintegration of my friendship with the girl who messaged me. I wasn't open enough for her, and I paid too much attention to my better friends. Oops? That's kind of mean of me, isn't it?

Well, maybe my wording is, but I think it is part of life that we have very good friends (like Kim and Margaret) and then other friends. And it's a kind of teirage. We cannot be everyone's best friend, correct? So in my opinion getting worked up over the fact that I have other friends who I might be closer to because I've known them longer is silly. Honestly. Really?

The conversation with this old friend really wrecked my mood because she decided to act like a complete *jerk* and then excuse it with "I'm going on a confrontation spree."

Excuse me?

A "confrontation spree" is no excuse to be a bitch.

I offered you my friendship. You can be happy with what I give you, respect my limits, or leave me alone. Do not ask me to give more of myself over to you. I won't. Don't tell me I stopped talking to you after you said we have nothing in common. Don't tell me it's all my fault after you didn't even tell me you were in town for a whole week.

I am aware that I am partially at fault. I don't open up to people very easily. It's my greatest flaw. I can be cold when I'm upset, I'm cold when I believe someone is overreacting. I am loyal to my good friends, and I will not force them to hang out with people they may not like all that much unless it's at a party where everyone can go their separate ways.

If we haven't spoken in months and our last conversation was one in which you told me explicitly that you believe we were never true friends, do not expect me to cower beneath your message. Do not expect me to throw you apologies.

Looking back, I am not sure the two of us were really friends. Not if you tell me I pay too much attention to my best friend and ignore me for days. That friendship was toxic in a way, and I am glad to be out of it. With this message, all that goopy gross mess resurfaced, and now it's just floating on the waves because she decided not to answer my last message.

I was perfectly content to let all of this pass over and forget about it, and it frustrates me to no end that she decided to send that message. I guess I'll just have to get over it again. Writing this helps. I don't mean to come off as mean, but if I do, sorry.

Sick of Feeling Stuck

First, Happy Valentine's Day! Whether you're alone or spending the day with your significant other. Either is a fantastic option. I for one spent my morning with a generous bowl of generic-brand Lucky Charms, the internet, and a handful of gummy bears. There is, of course, the five-page paper I have yet to do looming over me, but I have chosen to ignore it for now.

Carrying on. (As you can probably already tell, this is going to be one of those directionless posts.) I have yet to find a suitable outlet for all this energy. Now that I am unfortunately no longer in outdoor adventure, I have nothing active to do. I feel like I was one of the few kids who actually liked having gym class, but what's not to love about outdoor adventure? Climbing walls, rappelling off the shelf, high ropes course, yoga once a week, team building activities or playground games, and emotional intelligence discussions every week. I miss it a lot. This video is actual footage of Kim and me in class. Exciting stuff!

Now that I no longer have that, I've been searching for some kind of outlet. I went to a few yoga classes with my sister, and while that really makes me feel nice, it just isn't heart-pumping-adrenaline-pushing, which is what I need in my life right now. Running doesn't do it for me, although it can be fun at times. Swimming, I guess I would be willing to try. Except there's the whole matter of actually wearing a swimsuit in front of people. Honestly, that isn't too big of a deal, I just would rather find something else.

Like climbing. I really want to get back to climbing. And hiking. There are not ideal pass-times when you live in the flats of Palatine. Unfortunately, I do not have a state park like Devil's Lake in my backyard, nor can I find a proper climbing gym. This leads me to search elsewhere for a new activity.

Cliff diving? Racecar driving? Kickboxing? Snowboarding? Cannibalism and murder? The possibilities are endless. I need some way to let go of all this pent up energy, maybe something to push at my fears a little. I can feel myself getting stuck in a rut, and it is not a pleasant sensation.

Any ideas? What do you when you want to change your activities up? Feel free to contribute!

Growing

Standing at the white porcelain sink

with stiff foam bristles scraping your teeth,

try to remember the days 

your reflection hovered out of sight. 

Recall swinging your feet 

back and forth and bouncing

from the height of your dinner chair

and try to ask yourself,

is ten minutes long?

Once it seemed like an eternity. 

Listen to a storm's debate.

Thunder and lighting.

Compare them to gods and 

the voices of parents. 

Ask small questions and 

Cling to a small piece of that confidence

from the years we spent as small giants.

Taller, now, we're more afraid.

Growing up is like stepping

on a stair that falls away

and suddenly you're plunging.

It starts with the smell 

of a frozen pizza's bubbling cheese

and waiting alone for your own dinner.

That first time, you'll burn your finger 

on the blistering rack.

You'll have to get your own band-aid. 

Positive Exchange

Chances are, if you are cut off by an angry driver, you'll be ticked off. You get yelled at for being in the way, and you'll want to shout right back. If you're listening to incessant complaining, you'll probably be tempted to pitch in your own woes (It's important to remember that sadness is not a competition). Before you know it, the discontent you encounter on a daily basis affects your mood and effectively ruins your day. You won't be able to help spreading it to others after that.

Negativity breeds negativity. It can't be helped.   When you allow negative attitudes a part in your space, they have a high chance of overrunning your mood. But there's another side to that coin: A positive attitude behaves the same.

I find that when a friend has nothing good to say, it's best to stay away. That sounds harsh, but being in a pissy mood is not something I am a fan of. I love being around people who will marvel at the way how clear the sky is rather than moan over the cold. There is something invigorating about people who smile at the rain, laugh when they slip on the sidewalk, and tell you strange, quirky stories about nothing in particular. 

I'm not talking out people who bury their problems. That is unhealthy, and I would never ask anyone to do that. Still, when small problems with easy solutions are drawn out to tiresome odysseys, I get bored. I get tired. There is little more exhausting than being around a person who has nothing better to do than explain to you in detail how awful every moment of their existence is. 

But there is more to being a little happier than keeping happy people around you. You have to infect others with your positive energy. Go out of your way to smile at a stranger, sincerely ask a store clerk how they are. Even if you are unhappy, you don't have to spread it. Besides, doesn't making someone happy at least coax a small smile out of you?

Happiness seems to work on an law similar to equivalent-exchange. It's pretty simple. Show happiness and you'll receive it.