Self-Analysis

Well, here's to procrastination. I have a paper about Christianity and another about GMOs to write, but here I am typing away on my blog. About a subject I don't even like all too much.

I was just talking to my mom and sister about my mother's relationships. She told us her boyfriend likes us, and I disagreed (I honestly do find it hard to believe, that this man would care about us with the way he acts). In any case, that isn't the point. She actually ended up telling me that I intimidate people.

???

This is not how I normally see myself. Intimidating. Of all words, that really surprises me. Gotta admit this label almost appeals to me...But I have a hard time convincing myself it's appropriate.

She says it's because I am difficult to read, which I suppose can be true from some cases. I, however, would not say that's a strength as it has pushed many people away from me. So maybe that's my number two weakness.

Number one weakness would of course be being unable to communicate very well. I just can't bring myself to talk to people. I can't laugh at jokes I don't find funny, and I can't speak to people I don't like. I can barely speak to people I do like! (Unless I know them very well).

I'm currently reevaluating my situation. (Side note, I'd really like to go away for a week...) With spring break coming to a close, I am looking forward to being busy again. I am less motivated when I have less to do. Although I did end up running every other day, I failed to write my current project. At all. I've yet to figure out where that is even headed. Novella? Life arc? Character transformation? Wild spinning into crazy? I have no idea.

Anyway, this is my last blog post of March. And now I really have to write that essay...